Three weeks, Three different emotions.

I am blogging after a long long time not because I get too little time to do this but, just because I have really started enjoying my life here. Now this is normally what happens when you get into a B school. Initially you find so many variables in your lives changing at the same time. The nature of the change during the starting days is really radical. You stay all night up but not for chatting and movies but rather for working on some assignments. You never wish to bunk any of the lectures and if you do that it's purely unintentional and just because of an upset tummy or lack of sleep. You start taking your assignments seriously and all those surprise quizzes really start making sense. Well, this is what is happening to most of us. You can call this some sort of crisis where you really find hard to cope up with the change in you. I mean when you want everything to remain up to your comfort level but subconsciously you just keep on changing. This whole transition phase can be characterised by the complaining period. You complain about the crazy schedule, quizzes and teaching methodologies and sometime even about the kind of food that they serve you in the canteen.

MBA is considered to be a great value addition in India. The common perception is that your salaries will more or less get doubled after two years of time. But, the moment you enter into a B School campus, it seems that the assumption is not at all wrong. There indeed is a great value addition but that comes with the hardwork, determination and a high level of motivation. We know that there is a value attatched in the 'change' but then you just don't want to get out of that mould that you have constructed for yourself during your undergraduation life. So you find yourself in some conflict sort of things where a part of you feels that "do this and do that" and another part asks that "why this and why that"? But yeah, this is the justification phase. You try to justify your decision about joining a B School. You try hard to enjoy things, you desperately push harder to play an active part in the group assignments. You wish you could score well in all the quizzes and more importantly you want to grab attention.

The thing which I have started feeling now, is the third phase. Now, I have started enjoying the environment. I now have made truce with the pace of change. Now, this usually happens when that feeling of "MBA as something special' sinks deep down into your heart and you just stop feeling excited about your prospects after two years. You suddenly realize that two years is really a hell lot of time and only way you can prepare for tomorrow is by learning the concepts being taught today. You suddenly realize that food is okay and it no more bothers you. Putitng up all night for an assignment or a quiz or even for a presentation do not drives you crazy and you are quite comfortable even if you are sleeping for like 3-4 hours in a day.

Suddenly, the whole point of getting a MBA starts making sense. It's all about changing. The jargon is "Unlearning and Relearning".