How does it feel?

How does it feel when you come to know that you are not with the people who need you most? Or you were not there when they needed you most? Or even when you feel like you can not reach out to those who need you? Well, for me all these questions will remain unanswered for long long time to come. I guess that time spent out of home has toughened me but then I guess that its high time now to take that long overdue break and go home.